+In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.
Recently, somebody about half my age expressed the opinion that her favorite example of biblical wisdom literature was the Book of Ecclesiastes. I think my initial response might have not been as careful as it should have been. I think I said something like “when I was your age I hated Ecclesiastes. It was my least favorite book of the bible.” I went on to explain what I meant, but I should have opened with this: “You are clearly more mature than I was at your age. As a young person I found Ecclesiastes gloomy and fatalistic, but now I finally get it. Good on you for figuring this out a lot sooner than I did.”
In case you’re not familiar with the book, you can be forgiven: because of the cycle of assigned reading (the lectionary) we are bound to follow we only hear it read in Church on a Sunday once every three years, and then invariably in late July or early August–not a peak time for church attendance. And if you’re only familiar with the eight verses adapted by Pete Seeger and popularized by the rock band The Byrds as the single “Turn! Turn! Turn!” you might get the impression that the book tap into the hippy zeitgeist, which couldn’t be further from the truth.
As an aside, this issue of biblical literacy is an important one to me, so I don’t want the fact that I get animated talking about it sometimes to come across as shaming anybody for not knowing a whole lot of the bible. That said, while our tradition of following the lectionary no doubt exposes all of us to a broader diet of scripture than is likely to be found in most non-liturgical churches, what we hear on Sunday mornings is not exhaustive. So, if you are looking for a Lenten discipline, I heartily recommend some that you consider adopting some pattern of daily bible reading. There are lots of schemes available on the market and online for reading the whole bible in a year, for example, but I think the best place to start is with the daily office lectionary in the back of your prayerbooks, which, though it doesn’t cover every single verse does give an excellent, manageable exposure to most of the bible. Then, if you want, you can even do what I’ve started to do–namely, taking note of when that lectionary skips several verses or even chapters, think to yourself “huh, why’d they cut that?”, and then go read it after you morning or evening prayer. That will familiarize you with some of the nastier bits of scripture that “they” (meaning the people who put the lectionary together) don’t think you’re man or woman enough to handle.
Anyway, back to Ecclesiastes. Like I said, I used to hate it because if you’re not familiar with it, the overarching message seems so gloomy and fatalistic. Vanity upon vanity, all is vanity! The word vanity there is actually the Hebrew הבל, meaning vapor, smoke, nothingness that the slightest breeze can sweep away. The best you can do, the preacher says, is live a simple life, enjoy your work, and try to die with a clean conscience, because one way or another, you will eventually die.
Being a part of the generation that was told over and over again growing up that we could change the world and that we could be or do anything so long as we tried hard enough, this is precisely the opposite of what we were trained to believe. It was a well-intentioned lie, but a lie nonetheless, perhaps an over-correction from an era in which children were to be seen and not heard combined with the optimism and social and economic progress of the historical “blip” which was post-war America. The suggestion that we are not all masters of our own destiny lies in stark relief against the cultural consensus under which I was raised.
I have become convinced that all the assumptions to which the message of Ecclesiastes provides a rejoinder serve as a spiritual straitjacket whose straps are the demands of moral perfectionism and whose sewn sleeves serve to limit the boasts of radical self-reliance. The only shears which can snip us out of this canvas-charactered constraint, this constitutional captivity, are the spirits of Ecclesiastes and of Ash Wednesday, which remind us of two facts we’d like to ignore: we are sinners and we are going to die.
All I’ve said about generational concerns notwithstanding, I think this point is in fact universally applicable, it may just strike those who grew up under a moral-therapeutic model of human identity and value as more acute, because that model makes the basic emptiness of such an approach more obvious after we’ve tried it for a while and failed. In simpler terms, we all need to be freed from the impossible expectations of moral perfectionism and total self-sufficiency. We all need to be reminded, like I said, that we are sinners and we are going to die.
This naturally lets a lot of the pressure off, but it’s about more than that. This is just the first step to the solution of getting us out of that straitjacket. After the realization of our sinfulness and mortality, we are able to see a way out of the dilemma. When we see we simply cannot measure up by virtue of our own will and efforts, we are able to call on the one who is our helper. When we say that we are sinners, that that is central to our being, not just the accumulation of personal mistakes, but rather a flaw in our nature which we cannot fix on our own by just being good, then we can finally do the one needful thing–namely, call upon the one who doesn’t just teach us how to be better, but whose own righteousness makes us better despite ourselves and our perennial inability to learn or remember that moral lesson. When we are told we are going to die, that we are mortal, we are given the opportunity to rely on the one whose very nature transcends our fundamental finitude, our cardinal contingency.
So, that is what we are about this day. I’ve been asked by a few, sometimes in a slightly accusatory tone by a couple of my favorite former interlocutors (both of whom were brought up in Methodism, so came by their high view of human effort honestly) why we have to keep doing this. Is there not a point at which we can stop talking about sin? My answer is that I cannot speak for anybody else having not reached perfection myself, and personally not believing it possible this side of paradise. I just know that I need this reminder daily, sometimes hourly, and especially on days like today, as we enter a season of more intense and intentional reliance on the one who saves us. I need it, because I so easily forget and fall back into the sort of pride that has me convince myself that I can do it on my own. To use the language of the Apostle Paul, I need the Law continually to convict me so that I can accept the Grace God offers through his Son.
This affirmation–“I am a sinner and I’m going to die”–then, is not gloomy, but liberating, because just the other side of that affirmation is the realization (whether for the first time or the millionth) that we are redeemed and we are promised new life. It’s not our doing; it’s the Grace of God working in us that which is well-pleasing in his own sight, more than we can possibly ask or imagine. Today we ask him to do it all for us yet again, and he whose property is always to have mercy stands ready, as ever, to accomplish all that he has purposed.
+In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Ghost. Amen.
