+In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
For you yourself created my inmost parts; *
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
My body was not hidden from you, *
while I was being made in secret
and woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes beheld my limbs, yet unfinished in the womb;
all of them were written in your book; *
they were fashioned day by day,
when as yet there was none of them.
The psalmist presents us this morning with a very comforting thought. God knew us from the beginning; He saw us at the moment of conception, when we were but a cute little zygote. He was present and active as every little bit of us formed in our mother’s womb- as the cells divided and opened up to form a blastocyst all the way to when we started forming little hearts and lungs and brains and arms and legs and hands and feet.
Maybe this isn’t as exciting to some as it is to me, but I for one cannot imagine anything more comforting. Even before mom and dad knew I existed, God was already at work. Long before the obstetrician smacked us and we drew our first breath, the Great Physician gave us the breath of His Holy Spirit. The only words I know to respond to this beautiful truth are, once again, the words of the psalmist:
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; *
it is so high that I cannot attain to it.
We see this truth wonderfully displayed in God’s actions in the life of young Samuel. We learn in this morning’s Old Testament lesson that the Word of the Lord was rare in the days of Eli. What’s more, the shadow of corruption had come upon the worship of God in His Temple. Today’s lesson simply says that the sons of Eli were blaspheming God and their father permitted such abuse to continue. Earlier in First Samuel, it is explained that Eli’s sons, priests of the Temple, were stealing the burnt offerings to eat themselves and (believe it or not) were demanding better cuts of meat from those who came to make sacrifices to God, not because God demanded it, but because they wanted USDA prime filet for themselves rather than grade b chuck.
God required an advocate in Israel, a prophet who would denounce blasphemy and demand the reëstablishment of proper, orderly sacrifice; and God chose a child for this great task. As Samuel grew he would lead battles against the Philistines, call Israel to repentance, and anoint the first kings despite the fact that it meant his sons would not inherit the position of being judges of Israel from him.
God knew this would be Samuel’s lot in life when he formed him in his mother’s womb. This is not to suggest that Samuel had no part in determining his own course, as a strict Calvinist might have it. Rather, it means that God had a plan for him from the beginning; God did not determine Samuel’s path, but He knew that the young man would choose to follow the course intended for him.
There is much that we can glean from this, but I shall limit myself to one point- namely that there is a course set for each of us from the beginning and that it is our responsibility to determine where that path is leading us and how we might be faithful in following it. Now this does not mean that each of us can know precisely what he is meant to do in all aspects of his life from day one. I doubt if young Samuel knew precisely what God was calling him to do that night in the Temple. It does, however, mean that we can discern God’s will in our lives for at least the near future, knowing that the long term is also part of God’s plan and will be revealed in due course if we’re paying attention.
This may seem obvious enough, but I think we forget how the suppositions of the world can militate against this fundamental truth. There are assumptions about what sorts of life-choices are practical and appropriate considering an individual’s status in mind, body, or estate.
Please forgive my self-indulgence, but the best example that comes readily to mind for me is my own vocation. I remember vividly when I entered the ordination process. After my first semester in college, I returned home for my Christmas break, and the sense which had been nagging at me for a few years that I had a vocation to the priesthood finally pulled me in to my priest’s office and then (in very short order, thanks to the good rector’s appreciation of my as-yet nascent sense of a call) to the bishop’s office.
In that first meeting with the bishop, I kept encountering this idea that this was not something which an eighteen-year-old was supposed to be considering. In fairness to my bishop at the time, who ultimately supported my process, I’m sure I projected some of my own callow insecurity onto the situation, and, indeed, for nearly a half-century, the prevailing assumption in the church (not just in the bishop’s mind) was that one should have a career before considering “entering the church” (as the old ecclesial idiom so infelicitously put it).
It took some growth and discernment on my own part set this old assumption aside. In short (though I probably didn’t think precisely in these terms at the time) it took the realization that God had a plan for me from the very beginning and I had an obligation to see the thing accomplished, cultural expectations and my own insecurity not withstanding.
So, enough autobiography! The point is that each of us has a vocation, whether that be Holy Orders or being the best parent one can be or being the best friend one can be or being the best ditch-digger one can be. There is nothing for the Christian which is merely avocational; if we discern through prayer and contemplation the will of God, we’ll find that somehow each of the decisions we make in life is about vocation, about being the man or woman God means for us to be.
The good news is that God will make His gracious Will known, just as powerfully as he had done for Samuel, because cell by cell, limb by limb, synapse by synapse he made us just as He intended for just the purpose He intended. In some moments we can take this wonderful Truth and determine what’s next for us. In other moments, all we can do is stand back in awe and repeat the psalmists words again:
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; *
it is so high that I cannot attain to it.
+In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
